dreams that come true

I have a deep relationship with goodbye. I have learned it is an undeniable part of human existence...the coming and going, the living...the dying.

I have resisted many goodbyes along the way, but I always feel a sense of relief when I finally give in and accept them.

I still remember the first time I heard the word that now defines my latest good-bye:

wanderlust: an impulse, longing, or urge to wander or travel.


My dad spoke of it, said it was something he had always had inside of him and when it hit my ears, I instantly felt like I now understood a deep part of me. I soon realized that there were many other people out there who felt this way too, so many in fact, that this condition actually had a name.

For years it sat with me, but sadly, my wanderlust got tucked away as I "grew up" and responsibilities seemed to pile on top of me. For a long time it seemed impossible that I'd ever find a way to travel and have adventures.

But I am a dreamer, and we dreamers chase forever, we don't give up easily.

I kept searching for it in my heart and finally one day, that seed had grown into a dream and that dream became deliciously ripe. The time had come. All that was left, was one important step, from dreaming to doing.

I quit my job, my life, my entire existence. I walked away, abandoned all I knew. I hopped on a plane with my girls, to Costa Rica...a fresh start, to dip our toes in to a whole new way of life.

What I packed: A thirst for adventure. An open heart and mind. Two pint sized partners in crime. A courage I never knew I had.

We have been here for almost two months. I have enjoyed every soul seeking moment. I have allowed myself to indulge my wanderlust and plan to do more traveling. My soul is blossoming here. I have learned that the ability to enjoy life while being fully present is one of the greatest freedoms we can ever attain.

Some may question why I would want to give up the good life I had before, all that risk involved in embarking on a new pasture....but I truly believe sometimes we have to give up something good to get something even better.

I have been faced again with good-bye; it's bitter-sweet to leave behind, those people who have loved me, strong and true....but the truth is, love always makes me feel brave.

It was their love, that gave me the courage to leap and made my dream come true.

"You must always know how long to stay and when to go." ~ Dixie Chicks

tomorrow's

In 11 days, I will begin again, this time in Costa Rica.

This makes my heart leap, as I prepare to step out and live my life - for the first time ever - in a way that I have chosen. A path focused purely on letting go of what no longer serves me and chasing only that which nourishes my soul.

Life is full of possibilities.


The things I anticipate most -

A simple existence.

A world full of unknowns where even the simplest actions will feel abundant.


Time to stretch my limbs and take deep intentional breaths.

Divine rest. Lazy afternoons, swaddled in a hammock, just listening.


To finally release this existence, this mere existence, that has left me feeling stifled and cold.

To live outside the constraints of time.

To be out from under the weight of having my days filled with have-to's and should's.


A chance to see everything with new eyes.

Being completely out of my comfort zone. Forced to grow. To feel uncertain and maybe a little scared.

To meet and connect with fresh souls, others who have had experiences much different than mine. To listen to their stories and allow their lessons to become my own.


To make spontaneous decisions, based only on my heart and intuition.

A new country, a new culture. A new ground to dance upon.

Expansive spaces to run, laugh and play with child-like abandon.


To be given more precious time with my girls. To observe their innocence and curiosity.

To allow them to show me back to those parts of myself that I have lost along the way.


Space from the people I love. A chance to miss them, to appreciate their love and feel the weight of their absence.


To be present in the moment, not worrying about what tomorrow will bring.


The dream was always running ahead of me. To catch up, to live for a moment in unison with it...that was the miracle. -Anais Nin